Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Discernment


My brother worked with a lady whose husband Ronnie found a way to make a living as a paranormal investigator.  From listening to Ronnie, I don’t believe that he ever set out to be a paranormal investigator.  It seems to me that it was an interest of his that grew into him authoring a couple of books, then co-hosting a paranormal podcast and then being part of the research team on the Travel Channel’s program Expedition Bigfoot.  That’s the really short story of how my boys and I became interested in sasquatch - my brother promoted his friend Ronnie as Ronnie’s prominence grew in the paranormal community.  Now, my boys and I have turned into small-time bigfoot enthusiasts.


I particularly enjoy the Monsterland podcast that Ronnie co-hosts with Matty Blake, whom my family knows from the History Channel’s program The Curse of Oak Island: Drilling Down.  In one episode of the Monsterland podcast, Ronnie and Matty traveled from their homes in New England to Ohio where they went into the wilderness with two others to see if they could get a glimpse of a sasquatch or find evidence of any other “high strangeness”.  Dr. Rebecca Foster, a clairvoyant medium, was part of team on that outing.  I had no idea what a clairvoyant medium was, but when I did a web search for Dr. Rebecca Foster, I saw that she authored a book called God Please Tie My Shoes.  The book was cheap to order so I ordered it promptly.  Now, I can probably count on one hand the number of times that I’ve ordered a book from the web without doing my research to find out if it was available at a library or used bookstore, or even if it was worth getting.  It was odd how quickly I purchased the book and received it; it was like something nudged me to get the book. 


Another peculiarity is how quickly I read the book.  I’m not a fast reader but I tore through this book in under a week.  The book had numerous grammatical errors and formatting issues, because of which, I would not likely put much stock in it.  The content gave me a lot to think about though.  My interpretation of what Dr. Foster wrote is that she claims to be able to see people’s souls and can read our purpose on Earth.  She writes that most of us are reincarnate souls that have been sent by God to fulfill a purpose, that purpose usually being to learn something.  We negotiate with God, or make a contract with Him as the author puts it, to be able to go back to Earth to learn something that we may have struggled with in a previous life.  In order to accomplish our goal, our minds must be wiped at birth and God must give us free will, meaning that we are free to make our choices, good or bad.  We are sent back to Earth with angels to guide us and stay with us, but for every good angel that stays with us, there is a dark spirit as well, vying to steer us to our destruction.  That is not a complete summary of the book, but only what I found most interesting.


Dr. Foster seems so good-hearted, sincere and “Christian”, but I just can’t buy into her claims.  There are some interesting and encouraging concepts that she presents that I want to believe, but it’s a stretch from the traditional Christian concepts that I’m used to.  Maybe I’m too close-minded?  With that being said, I want to know why I was so drawn to the book, especially since I had just asked God for knowledge.  The Bible says that God will generously give knowledge to those who ask (James 1:5).  If I was nudged toward the book, as I feel I may have been, then I guess that would support Dr. Foster’s claim that our spiritual guides can line things up for us.  If this occasion was persuaded by a spiritual guide after my request for knowledge, then how can I be sure that it’s the good spirits that orchestrated it and not the clever dark spirits trying to dupe me?  I know that I have a trust issue, but perhaps I should also pray for discernment to be able to better judge what is good and bad.


Friday, June 5, 2020

What I Learned from Biscuits about Trust


The Sermon on the Mount is packed with good guidance.  I try to fast breakfast and lunch one day per week, which is what I would consider a beginner’s fast for a gluttonous guy like me.  I don’t like to talk about my fasting because The Sermon on the Mount says not to be showy when fasting because it is between you and God (Matthew 6:16-18).  I feel a bit uneasy talking about my fasting here, but I hope that the mention of it is seen as being told to bring glory to God.  I believe that stories told for the glory of God should be shared and not hidden.  I wouldn’t say that I’m any good at fasting anyway; I’ve been stuck on the beginner’s fast since the coronavirus pandemic started nearly three months ago.  

I decided when I began my weekly fast that I would accept food that was given to me by others and eat it even if I was fasting.  The food was their gift and I believe I would feel arrogant if I refused the gift.  Coincidentally, a coworker has been bringing me food about once a week, usually a sausage or chicken biscuit.  Though I’ve chosen different days to fast, this coworker has brought me food on the days that I’ve chosen to fast for at least the past four weeks.  He always seems to bring it to me late in the morning when I’m getting hungry, too.  It is as if God has put it on this man’s heart to give me some food so that I won’t be hungry.  Could that be?

I’m not fasting today, but I went grocery shopping this morning and didn’t have time to eat breakfast or pack a lunch before leaving for work.  Ironically, this same coworker brought me a bag of a half dozen biscuits to distribute this morning.  After distributing the biscuits to those who were here and wanted one, I was left with two biscuits.  One biscuit I ate for breakfast and the other I re-heated for lunch.  I’m not complaining, but how and why does this keep happening to me?

Even though I pray for provision from God at least daily, my skeptical mind doesn’t want to believe that God might be providing for me.  I don’t fully trust that the Lord is looking out for me even though He so obviously is.  Why, then, do I still worry?  Perhaps I should accept what Jesus says in The Sermon on the Mount in Matthew 6:25-27.  It would appear that Jesus knew just what I needed to hear.

 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?”